Nothing To Look Forward To

Did you ever just wake up in the morning and feel there’s just no happy left in the world? Like the world around you has been specially vacuum sealed with only the blah and humdrum left inside? That doesn’t totally explain how I feel but it comes really close. With my mother entering the hospital after a 30 year sobriety from Doctors, and having them immediately diagnose her with congestive heart failure its really not the worst that could happen but its not great either.

I was pretty excited about a house we were talking about getting, more room, huge yard, I was going to expand my business, plus it was built in this century, and hearing that we got it would really put some wind back in my sails, but I haven’t heard a thing, I’ve left messages and as days pass I get the distinct feeling we didn’t get it. Maybe its just me, I just feel as though I keep struggling against a stronger and stronger current and seeing no real prize at the end, I have begun to just let the current take me.

I really hope someone turns the light on at the end of that illusory tunnel of life because I am needing a little hope right now, a bit of incentive…….a prize in my Cracker Jacks…..